The first day of school is fast approaching and a day that usually fills me with excited anticipation is now filling me with dread. I have been teaching at the same school for the last two years, it was a lovely new building with sweet (relatively) well behaving children. I was happy there, but more than that, I was comfortable there. This year, I will be moving to a new school. It is NOT a new building and by reputation the children are NOT well behaved and I am incredibly nervous. Please don't get me wrong, it has been a very hard year on young teachers and I am thrilled and grateful to have a job, any job. But I spent a great deal of time at my old school entrenching myself in the community and making myself a vital member of the faculty. Now I have to start all over and the thought of that is just exhausting. I hate having to re-build my reputation with staff, parents and most importantly, students. I hate that sussing out period of time where students push boundaries in order to find out what you are made of. Perhaps this is simply my Taurus nature coming out. I have always hated change, I like the known, the secure. I hate walking into a place and not knowing my way around, and I am terrible at meeting new people. I can't remember names, I forget details of what people have told me and I either come on too strong or appear completely aloof. I am a complete mess! Any suggestions (either magickal or mundane) on how to deal with this whole situation?
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Ugh, I hate having to deal with new people. I always get very nervous, and afterwards I feel like I must have said so many stupid things, lol! The thing that I have learned to do, is to pretend that I am acting. I know it sounds kookoo, but I pretend that I'm playing the part of a confident person, and try to do the best job in the part. I usually fool myself into doing okay!
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